Good day to die "heart"

It's today. Let the heart die.

Friends? The most normal friend will do. Please do no think of close or even a good bonding in between. A "hi & bye" perhaps?

Love and friends. Girl and brothers. These had hurt me so much.

I'm not craving for love, I'm just craving to be cared. One message got half message replied. Am I just too boring for you or you are just not interested on me? It has been almost

I really hope to have a real brother in my family. Well, that is already a truth that cannot be changed. What if one outside of family? That is a great question which I always asked myself, "do I really need to do that?". I have done what I can, I sacrifice my time to help, but what I have in the end is just not more than a thank you. Just reply my message will cheer me all the time.

Well, my heart was chose to die today, at this moment. This is the end for me and you. Please do not say I am changed (You are so kind if you have noticed), I'm just trying to protect myself.

I hope it will not regret me.

不一样的团圆饭

团圆饭，故名思义一家人吃饭。

今年的团圆饭，有别以往。

少了一双筷子，少了一张椅子。

只能感叹与怀念过去那似乎理所当然的团圆饭。

我，又想你了。在天国过得好吗？

有付出就有回报？

当你付出所有，你就会得到一切？

别傻了，醒醒吧！

不但没有一切，一点点都没有。

我，彻底地无言。

请不要讨厌我。

人生，总有低潮，跌入低谷的时候。

正置低迷，我不渴望有人能够明白我。

但也请不要疏远我。

嬉皮笑脸不是我的风格，敏感的我可知道你们对我的想法与突然改变的态度。

我没怪你们，没有生气。

同样的，请不要怪我，生气我，远离我。

我需要的是关心，不是可怜。

请不要以可怜的目光看我，我不会感谢与珍惜。

作为男性，似乎不需要这么感性。

但对于我的关心，一个拍肩膀的动作，就很窝心。

这样突然地疏远，我真的无法适应。

原谅我的自私，不是不要说出来，而是谁又会借我那肯聆听的心。

我已尽量补救，但似乎无补于事。

既然处于“身在一群中，感觉始终一人”的尴尬与无趣里，

倒不如我从来没出现，还你们一个快乐。

Mess

My life is so messy.

Relationship, friendship, family.

I hope I have never met that one.

God bless.

Cannot hold it anymore, please forgive.

I want to say sorry to my friends for my action today. I just couldn't hold it anymore.

It has been month, a month of forceful laugh, I just couldn't stand it.

I promise, this will not happen to me again.

I just hope you guys can understand me, I not purposely did that.

When there is some changes in life.

Changes, no matter how big it is, always appear in our life.

You can't control the changes, you can't manage the timing.

The sudden change of the life is like the heart attack without taking your breath away.

No choice; Accept.

This is the truth. I chose to accept, anyway.

Appreciate what you are having right now, because it doesn't stay forever long.

If you are the author?

"Miss, can I photocopy the book that you want us to buy?", I asked.

"What you think if you're the author?".

That's a very good question.

If I were the author, I'll definitely be angry if I see my book was being photocopied. I would go forward and ask them, "why did you do that?". Well, that's not a question, it doesn't need an answer. As there's no reason to break the law, the copy right issue.

If I were the author, I... Wait, I'm not the author!

Haih, books are so expensive. I'm not complaining, but confusing. WHY MUST WE BUY???

To buy or not to buy,

alright, I've no other choice.

BUY LOH!!!!!!

You will get what you paid for.

My effort is not rubbish!

I've done something for you, please don't take it as rubbish.

Since you guys don't appreciate it, I would never put my effort on you all.

That's my post today.

Appreciate what people have just done for you.

It's my last stage before leaving.

Going to start my degree in one week time. My feeling? Er... excited? Nervous? Well I don't know. Mixed feeling maybe.

New begin and new hopes.

First thing I want to do before next week, I would like to thank myself, for not giving up. I'm so glad that I still can stand with it. I hope it's the same for the next 3 years.

Secondly, an appreciation for my course mate. For this past 2.5 years, we study together, rushing for assignments, cheating during tests XP, and so many things that we've been through. Oh yea, so happy that we're going to "enjoy" degree together again. Not regretting for choosing you guys as my gang. Actually, you guys chose me. ^^

Oh ya! My beloved life-time-friends, why gathering become lesser and lesser? Haha~ it's time for us to share our moments in our college/university life!

Finally, I wish my Degree life will be a smooth and successful path in my life. This is one important path! Wish me luck!