Everything has proved me.

I was told that it wasn't my fault, it is their loss for being fool. But how can I treat my friends as fools?

You wouldn't believe the thing unless you experienced it. Yeah, that's true. The experiences these few days is unforgettable. It is just like a big hand slapped at my face very hard.

And now, I'm awaken. Awake from the dream, from the most stupid dream of being such a fool like me.

People come and go in my life. That's absolutely normal. But please don't teach me in that way.

I have learnt my lesson. I hope that wasn't too late.

People asks me smile, I tell them "till my heart does".

Hey! Don't blame on me for the changes as I wasn't the first one who started it.

Things will change, so do I.

A little hope, perhaps?

Well, I wait for it.

透•明

当心已透彻，扉终会明白。

当光线透过雨滴，却不再是白的。

透彻与明白后，将会是透明。

透明和隐形不同，

隐形，是完全不知情，看不见，属于被动漠视。

透明，是看得见，但却当作看不见，透过主体看后方，属于主动漠视。

当我隐形者，为陌生人；

当我透明者，为熟悉的陌生人也。

如果我有时光机

...我要回到六年前，阻止自己爱上你。

...我要回到五年前，加倍努力读好SPM。

...我要回到四年前，收回自己流过的眼泪。

...我要回到三年前，好好记住和你们的邂逅。

...我要回到两年前，避开和你成为知己的机会。

...我要回到一年前，珍惜一切关于你的时刻。

...我要回到半年前，还我一个开心的自己。

现在的我，好不开心，好不自己。

我到底是谁？！

我要的是什么？！

我的梦在那里？！

When is the time?

...time to end up the mess.

...time to forget all the pain.

...time to let go all the bitter memories.

...time to get a brand new start of my life.

生•活

脚根淤泥，

歌楚四面；

处身逆境，

生逢绝处。

处境尴尬，但又无法离开。

四周的环境都不利于己，

既然身处在逆境挣扎，

不如寻找生机，欢自己一个快乐的人生，

证明自己活过，

实实在在地活在这土地。

请大力大力地讨厌我。

我每天都试着最大的力气不去有这样的想法，

但事实上，它的确发生在我身上。

被人无辜杯葛；

好兄弟突然疏远，或者只是我自作多情；

每天受着人前人后两个样的对待；

一旦我插进对话，就是话尾；

独处时，宁愿睡觉，做低头族也不要和我聊天；

我主动开聊，你答一句就假装睡觉。

别当我是傻子了，我已经死了不是吗？

我在这里，鞠一个大躬，叩个响头，说一声＂对不起＂！ 无论我在哪里冒犯你们，我真的诚心向你们道歉。

边界

一年才一天的主角，有些人，自然会有别人给，别人陪。
而我，总是求别人陪，求别人给。

到底是我平时对别人太差，还是我太在乎？

我想应该是我已到了边界，寂寞边界。

此时此刻

没有了我的围绕，希望你能走过去。

没有了我的陪伴，希望你能克服它。

没有了从前日子，希望你未来幸福。

没有了往日誓言，希望你承诺将来。


最后的最后，我还是多么的自私，
想在你身边陪你熬过今夜。

大结局

好吧，这就是大结局了！

作为朋友该做的，我做了。

我对得起自己，对得起良心。

也说声谢谢，因为我上了宝贵的一课。

这次，就连我自己也觉得很笨。

良心？以后不会有这戏码。

我的世界，就只有我。

Happy birthday to myself

The time has finally bring my 22th birthday away. 

This year, not surprisingly had the same experience like last year.

Firstly, thanks to Jason, Choon Eng, Seah and Pomelo for accompanying me on last Saturday. Thanks for being at my side. Well, I'm really sorry to said that isn't celebrating anything, this is the reason I paid back the Starbucks drink. I'm happy you guys willing to spent your time with me, but honestly I did not feel warm instead, cold. 

Thanks for the hug. 

Kinda disappointing Mr. L and Ms. Y did not notice my special day. 

Next year, I would not expecting anything. Because it will only makes me down.

Ciaoz~