I don't understand.

I really don't understand.
I never expect a 3 days trip with friends will be this hard.

Just ignore me kay?
As long as I'm safe, I'll be back.
No drugs no smoke no gangsterism.
No sex no kiss.

I'm seriously not a kid anymore.
I've listened to you all the time,
so why don't you set me free for 3 days?

I hope there will be a good news for me later.
0% will happen.

Bye~

Today is not my day.

I tried to study all, and yes, I studied all.
I tried to understand all, and yes, I understood all.
But I couldn't get a single mark for my test today.

Since last two year, I told myself, I can't take it anymore, so I must do better.

Anyway,

I just do not know what's going wrong today, or should I say everyday?

I seldom get any action supports from my friends.
I knew the reason and I understood.
But I'm just a human, not clown.

I need someone to talk with me.
I need to express my feeling, either sad or happy.
But I'm so clear about that, this seldom happen.

I knew my friends are just kidding sometimes.
Well, they always do.
But just too much.

Fish will die just because too much of food.
It's the same case here.

I just hope that,
me, for you guys is not a tool of expressing yourself.
I'll be very happy if you don't.

I'm just too looking forward to my new lifestyle.