Why Am I Still Holding That?

For the past years, I was so happy, friends and family are good to me! And I thought I can release myself, won't take myself so heavy. But I was wrong, it happen to me again, and I was not able to ignore it. I'm still care about it!

I really think I could do that, really! But the truth is I CAN'T!

I'm still holding for so many years, I'm really tired. Why cant I help myself? Just forget about it. I used years of time to forget it, but failed.

Nobody can help, the only way is me to help myself.

Please, I really don't hope it will happen again.

p/s: Please, let me go! ='(