又一次的心碎

就真的连“好朋友”都不可以吗？

我感受到的，就只有萍水相逢而已。

好想离开这里，

我好辛苦，好不想活得这样。

可以离开吗？

离开了，就真的忘了吗？

为什么我已付出我所有，得到的就只值得一句“再见”吗？

我的强颜欢笑，不是理所当然。

我好想哭。

真的真的，好想哭。

这样的时候，又有谁会停留在我心中，

陪我度过这难熬的夜晚。

我好讨厌自己。

就连我都讨厌我，更别说其他人。

我好模糊，

就连一个认识快十年的朋友，都对我完全不了解。

我好失败，

就连一个平时对我来说普通的考试，都考得一塌糊涂。

我求求天，

让他离开我的世界，要不就我离开，

还我一个开心又爽朗的自己。

我，期待着那天的到来。

是错吗？

有这样的想法是错误的吗？

渴望被爱，渴望关心，是罪过吗？

爱情世界里，爱与被爱真的不能成正比？

难道要她明白真的困难？

友情世界里，真心的付出不一定能的到真心的关怀？

难道要他明白真的困难？

我的世界里，是我想太多还是别人不想懂？

不是，都不是。而是我给自己第二次希望，但却又领悟得太迟。

惟有改变自己，从内到外。彻底的改变，彻底的领悟。

The saddest thing ever

is no one can actually talk with you deep inside, and have to express it out through blogger. Yeah, that's sad but that's fine.

Night peeps.

What is my price?

"Seems like everybody got a price..." sang by Jessie-J.

So, what is mine? How much?

The value of oneself has to be judged by other people. How important you are, cannot simply said by yourself but others who think you are the important one.

But, do you really want to have a price? I mean people see your personality after the price. Yeah, that is what is going on in the community nowadays, but would you want it to happen in your private or personal community life?

Everyone is born to be something. That is the most important fact in our life. No one can be simply replaced.

I hope everyone in this world, can be whatever they are born to be.

Do not think you are better than me, I will make you a surprise one day.

Too much

Too much about friendship.

It's time for me to go back to my family.

Love? I'm so afraid to be hurt.

Good day to die "heart"

It's today. Let the heart die.

Friends? The most normal friend will do. Please do no think of close or even a good bonding in between. A "hi & bye" perhaps?

Love and friends. Girl and brothers. These had hurt me so much.

I'm not craving for love, I'm just craving to be cared. One message got half message replied. Am I just too boring for you or you are just not interested on me? It has been almost

I really hope to have a real brother in my family. Well, that is already a truth that cannot be changed. What if one outside of family? That is a great question which I always asked myself, "do I really need to do that?". I have done what I can, I sacrifice my time to help, but what I have in the end is just not more than a thank you. Just reply my message will cheer me all the time.

Well, my heart was chose to die today, at this moment. This is the end for me and you. Please do not say I am changed (You are so kind if you have noticed), I'm just trying to protect myself.

I hope it will not regret me.

不一样的团圆饭

团圆饭，故名思义一家人吃饭。

今年的团圆饭，有别以往。

少了一双筷子，少了一张椅子。

只能感叹与怀念过去那似乎理所当然的团圆饭。

我，又想你了。在天国过得好吗？

有付出就有回报？

当你付出所有，你就会得到一切？

别傻了，醒醒吧！

不但没有一切，一点点都没有。

我，彻底地无言。