Where is my starting point... The point where I should start.
The point where I should throw everything away...
The point where I should stop my happiness...
The point where I should get my mood back...
THE POINT WHERE I SHOULD GET MY ASS SIT IN FRONT OF TABLE AND GET MY HEAD INTO THE SPM STUDY!
Well, I hate that point, I hope it never comes to me...
Anyway, that's just a hope, and I have to face it, to face the reality.
SPM IS ON THE WAY.... THIS IS THE REALITY!
I am pushing away the point! I am trying to escape from the point!
I'M TRYING TO CHEAT MYSELF, SPM WILL NEVER COME!
Unluckily, it'll not happen.
So now, I have to stop whatever I'm doing right now.
To reach the point, to prepare for the nightmare!
Every night before I sleep, I close my eyes,
tell myself that, SPM IS NOTHING!
SPM IS COMING SOON!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
AA Batteries
Yeah... I got this. For Photography competition third place!
Yeap!!! 2 Kodak branded AA batteries!
I am so jealous...
B'coz the 1st and 2nd prizes was TRIPOD!
A camera tripod stand! OMG!!! I need tat!!!!
Chris... Sharlene... exchange with me please....
Thursday, August 07, 2008
deepest of heart
I want to be a good one;
I want to be a friendly one;
I want to be a lovely one,
and I'm trying my best.
He wants me to be an unrestrained one;
She wants me to be a careful one;
They want me to be a stronger one,
and I'm doing my best.
I am a good one, when I walk with you;
I am a friendly one, when I sit with you;
I am a lovely one, when I talk with you;
I can be my best, when I with you.
I'm not a perfect one,
you hurt my heart,
when you say this to me,
but I never cry,
because,
he asked me to be a unrestrained one;
she asked me to be a careful one;
and they asked me to be stronger.
Yes!
I love you!
And I know,
it is never too late,
to be what I might have been.
I want to be a friendly one;
I want to be a lovely one,
and I'm trying my best.
He wants me to be an unrestrained one;
She wants me to be a careful one;
They want me to be a stronger one,
and I'm doing my best.
I am a good one, when I walk with you;
I am a friendly one, when I sit with you;
I am a lovely one, when I talk with you;
I can be my best, when I with you.
I'm not a perfect one,
you hurt my heart,
when you say this to me,
but I never cry,
because,
he asked me to be a unrestrained one;
she asked me to be a careful one;
and they asked me to be stronger.
Yes!
I love you!
And I know,
it is never too late,
to be what I might have been.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
PJ Hilton is hell...
''Ring... Ring....'' Ops, that's my phone alarm!
I look at the clock, it's 6.30.
I wake up, then brush my teeth, wash my face.
And go to 'pay water bill'.
I look at the clock again, it's 6.50.
OMG, so early, so, i decided to do my last practice.
I turn on the silence pedal, and then start my earliest practice.
I play it very soft, hm... till no sound at all.
And the songs wake my sisters up.
I cook a Maggie mee, eat it in front of TV.
it's 7.30 now, so i prepare my things before I change my shirt.
I walk out with my sister and wait for my cousin's car,
(she said she can fetch me ma...)
Listen to the morning crew,
when I get into the car.
OMG!!! Traffic jam!!! A huge traffic jam!
We've been trapped in the jam for one hour and 15 minutes.
Finally, we reached HILTON HOTEL.
We say goodbye to my cousin,
and I rushing into the hotel with my sister,
because, it's already 9.30!
(My exam time is about 10.10 and
I suppose to go there about one hour before the exam start.)
So, I considered late.
Go into the lobby, and straight to the lift.
Wait! i don noe which floor is the examination floor!
Luckily, got i auntie and her son oso come for exam,
so i juz follow them.
Wait in the waiting room after registered my name with the worker.
It was cool, my fingers become ice-cream.
Maybe because of panic, coz my sister din feel cool.
''Tham Feh Fan! Your turn!'' the worker 'shout softly' in the waiting room.
She brings me to the room,the examination room.
I open the door, and I saw a women sitting inside,
I think she came from England.
I noe her name was 'Nicole'. (Saw her profile in the waiting room.)
''Good morning!'' Wow, she have a beautiful voice,
and it makes me more nervous.
She start to asked SCALES. I played it safely.
Then i start my three pieces. After that is sight reading.
I play it well too, i think. Then, is my worst part come.
The aural section. She asked me to stand beside the piano.
And she comes in front of the piano.
She started to play. My heart also started to beat faster and faster,
and eventually the fastest.
She asked me some question about the pieces,
and I answer it clearly, and I noe I was wrong for certain question.
Finally, this exam comes to an end.
And, she said 'thank you! Bye~' to me.
And I don noe why, i said 'Have a nice day!' to her.
I don noe why i said this, it's juz come out from my mouth.
When i was walking out the room,
I've made a conclusion,
She had a good pronunciation... compared to the COW!!!!
Haha!!!
Sorry ya.... long story, however, thanks for reading!!!!
I look at the clock, it's 6.30.
I wake up, then brush my teeth, wash my face.
And go to 'pay water bill'.
I look at the clock again, it's 6.50.
OMG, so early, so, i decided to do my last practice.
I turn on the silence pedal, and then start my earliest practice.
I play it very soft, hm... till no sound at all.
And the songs wake my sisters up.
I cook a Maggie mee, eat it in front of TV.
it's 7.30 now, so i prepare my things before I change my shirt.
I walk out with my sister and wait for my cousin's car,
(she said she can fetch me ma...)
Listen to the morning crew,
when I get into the car.
OMG!!! Traffic jam!!! A huge traffic jam!
We've been trapped in the jam for one hour and 15 minutes.
Finally, we reached HILTON HOTEL.
We say goodbye to my cousin,
and I rushing into the hotel with my sister,
because, it's already 9.30!
(My exam time is about 10.10 and
I suppose to go there about one hour before the exam start.)
So, I considered late.
Go into the lobby, and straight to the lift.
Wait! i don noe which floor is the examination floor!
Luckily, got i auntie and her son oso come for exam,
so i juz follow them.
Wait in the waiting room after registered my name with the worker.
It was cool, my fingers become ice-cream.
Maybe because of panic, coz my sister din feel cool.
''Tham Feh Fan! Your turn!'' the worker 'shout softly' in the waiting room.
She brings me to the room,the examination room.
I open the door, and I saw a women sitting inside,
I think she came from England.
I noe her name was 'Nicole'. (Saw her profile in the waiting room.)
''Good morning!'' Wow, she have a beautiful voice,
and it makes me more nervous.
She start to asked SCALES. I played it safely.
Then i start my three pieces. After that is sight reading.
I play it well too, i think. Then, is my worst part come.
The aural section. She asked me to stand beside the piano.
And she comes in front of the piano.
She started to play. My heart also started to beat faster and faster,
and eventually the fastest.
She asked me some question about the pieces,
and I answer it clearly, and I noe I was wrong for certain question.
Finally, this exam comes to an end.
And, she said 'thank you! Bye~' to me.
And I don noe why, i said 'Have a nice day!' to her.
I don noe why i said this, it's juz come out from my mouth.
When i was walking out the room,
I've made a conclusion,
She had a good pronunciation... compared to the COW!!!!
Haha!!!
Sorry ya.... long story, however, thanks for reading!!!!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
doesn't mean that
Everybody!
For my 'see What's on' post,
I doesn't mean tat,
I should win the 1st place,
or,
I'm much more better than the other contestants...
So please don salah faham!!!
I'm juz blaming the competition and the schl oni!!!
For my 'see What's on' post,
I doesn't mean tat,
I should win the 1st place,
or,
I'm much more better than the other contestants...
So please don salah faham!!!
I'm juz blaming the competition and the schl oni!!!
Friday, July 25, 2008
see what's on
Yo...haha..
Photography competition 2008...
hm... actually the title was not easy,
READING IN ACTION
Hm... tat means take some one
who is reading....
haha!
At first, i was not decided to join it.
Because i hav no time to take photos
since this is my SPM year!
however, teacher remember tat,
i hav joined this competition last year.
So, teacher ask me to simply take some photo,
b'coz not much contestants!
OK.... so i said i'll join it.
She said tat to me on Tuesday,
I ask her can i pass up the photos
on this friday, and she said can!
So i took the picture on Wednesday...
then wash it on Thursday... got it on the spot.
RM3 for each ah.... damn expensive
I'm not free on wednesday so cant wash it on tat day.
Then got it on friday!
then pass it to teacher....
And teacher said,
1) I cant put u in the 1st or 2nd place,
because u pass up it late! (WTH!)
2)The photos can edit by computer!
who said cannot!(I ask teacher this b'coz
i saw one of the contestants photo was edited.
WTF! Photography competition can edit photo 1 meh?)
3)She asked me wat type of camera did i use.
then i said the old type Canon cybershot.
And she said tat is why i cant get 1st or 2nd place!
(WTH! u decided the place not according to the photo.
is according to the camera which take the photos?
u noe y? Because one of the contestants use DSLR!)
So... conclusion is...
School photography competition is...
the one which don hav standard,
and is not following the STANDARD.
Haih... I'm juz nothing actually,
Watever la...
AND
Yvonne is my modelfor this competition!
Photography competition 2008...
hm... actually the title was not easy,
READING IN ACTION
Hm... tat means take some one
who is reading....
haha!
At first, i was not decided to join it.
Because i hav no time to take photos
since this is my SPM year!
however, teacher remember tat,
i hav joined this competition last year.
So, teacher ask me to simply take some photo,
b'coz not much contestants!
OK.... so i said i'll join it.
She said tat to me on Tuesday,
I ask her can i pass up the photos
on this friday, and she said can!
So i took the picture on Wednesday...
then wash it on Thursday... got it on the spot.
RM3 for each ah.... damn expensive
I'm not free on wednesday so cant wash it on tat day.
Then got it on friday!
then pass it to teacher....
And teacher said,
1) I cant put u in the 1st or 2nd place,
because u pass up it late! (WTH!)
2)The photos can edit by computer!
who said cannot!(I ask teacher this b'coz
i saw one of the contestants photo was edited.
WTF! Photography competition can edit photo 1 meh?)
3)She asked me wat type of camera did i use.
then i said the old type Canon cybershot.
And she said tat is why i cant get 1st or 2nd place!
(WTH! u decided the place not according to the photo.
is according to the camera which take the photos?
u noe y? Because one of the contestants use DSLR!)
So... conclusion is...
School photography competition is...
the one which don hav standard,
and is not following the STANDARD.
Haih... I'm juz nothing actually,
Watever la...
AND
Yvonne is my modelfor this competition!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Please help
Ok... Well... fei sin ask me promote a activity...
Haha... All saujanians,
as u noe there is a new food stall at our canteen,
which is selling the mee soup, or curry mee or others.
Everyday during recess time,
you will see a lot of people are waited to be served,
hm... i mean buying food...
but then, there's only one stall which
have a very good response from the students,
we call the stall as Chinese stall.
(since it is sell by Chinese Auntie)
Well, you noe what happen,
this Chinese stall had too good response,
and this brings the 'jealous' of the other stall.
Hm... we call it as Malay stall.
(Since it is sell by Malay guys and auntie)
And,
the boss of the canteen,
decided to 'halau' them,
just b'coz of too good in response!
Come on la...
And what we have now,
is to make a complaint to our principal...
please,
save our mee stall...
if not, we have to eat those ugly things like b4...
juz sign ur name, that's all!!!
SAVE UR STOMACH!!!!
Haha... All saujanians,
as u noe there is a new food stall at our canteen,
which is selling the mee soup, or curry mee or others.
Everyday during recess time,
you will see a lot of people are waited to be served,
hm... i mean buying food...
but then, there's only one stall which
have a very good response from the students,
we call the stall as Chinese stall.
(since it is sell by Chinese Auntie)
Well, you noe what happen,
this Chinese stall had too good response,
and this brings the 'jealous' of the other stall.
Hm... we call it as Malay stall.
(Since it is sell by Malay guys and auntie)
And,
the boss of the canteen,
decided to 'halau' them,
just b'coz of too good in response!
Come on la...
And what we have now,
is to make a complaint to our principal...
please,
save our mee stall...
if not, we have to eat those ugly things like b4...
juz sign ur name, that's all!!!
SAVE UR STOMACH!!!!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Many to one...
Oh my god... spm is coming soon...
3++ months oni....
I haven finish my revision yet la...
nxt minthe will be the trial exam...
some more teacher haven finish the textbook yet...
hm.. i don't noe how to spell 'silibus'
What the.... i haven finish HARRY POTTER yet...
I haven finish POKEMON yet...
please... don come so fast...
my brain was no clear at this moment...
i cant study at all...
What i'm always thinking is harry and pokemon...
help me!!!
I don't wan SPM!!!
Ops... before i forgot..
Teacher told me,
there's another choir competition on next month.
Hm... the song was specified,
hav to sing folk song... (lagu kerakyatan)
something like 'rasa sayang'.
Since it's lack of time to practice...
teacher haven decide yet whether wan to join the competition or not..
Anyway, i think i'll be the pianist also
if teacher wan us to join it.
haih....
Why so many things come to me at once....
Haih... is it the add maths function? Many to one function!
3++ months oni....
I haven finish my revision yet la...
nxt minthe will be the trial exam...
some more teacher haven finish the textbook yet...
hm.. i don't noe how to spell 'silibus'
What the.... i haven finish HARRY POTTER yet...
I haven finish POKEMON yet...
please... don come so fast...
my brain was no clear at this moment...
i cant study at all...
What i'm always thinking is harry and pokemon...
help me!!!
I don't wan SPM!!!
Ops... before i forgot..
Teacher told me,
there's another choir competition on next month.
Hm... the song was specified,
hav to sing folk song... (lagu kerakyatan)
something like 'rasa sayang'.
Since it's lack of time to practice...
teacher haven decide yet whether wan to join the competition or not..
Anyway, i think i'll be the pianist also
if teacher wan us to join it.
haih....
Why so many things come to me at once....
Haih... is it the add maths function? Many to one function!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Sorry & Thanks
To: all my friends,
I'm so sorry...~
Yes, I very straight forward now,
it's just nothing, I just wan to say sorry.
Say sorry to those that I dislike or hate before.
I felt that I was stupid,
because I hated someone.
I did my things wrongly,
and now I have to face to the wrong things,
and now I have to solve the wrong things.
Sorry,
from my deepest part of heart.
Whatever that I did to you all,
I apologize here, and,
I know what should I do.
Sorry,
from my 'sadly' heart.
Whatever I said to you all,
I apologize here, and,
I know what should I say.
Yes! I know I was wrong,
and I'm changing myself!
I'm not a clever boy,
I'm not a smart guy,
Do the things without thinking,
Speak out the words without thinking,
that's me, that's the truth.
But now, I wanted to change,
to be a better person,
to be a better guy.
And also,
to have a better life,
to have a better relationship with someone.
Thanks,
from my honest heart.
Thanks for forgiving me,
forgiving a stupid one.
Really, thanks.
I'm so happy,
because I have met you all.
Ya... I'm very happy!
From: Your friend, f@n
I'm so sorry...~
Yes, I very straight forward now,
it's just nothing, I just wan to say sorry.
Say sorry to those that I dislike or hate before.
I felt that I was stupid,
because I hated someone.
I did my things wrongly,
and now I have to face to the wrong things,
and now I have to solve the wrong things.
Sorry,
from my deepest part of heart.
Whatever that I did to you all,
I apologize here, and,
I know what should I do.
Sorry,
from my 'sadly' heart.
Whatever I said to you all,
I apologize here, and,
I know what should I say.
Yes! I know I was wrong,
and I'm changing myself!
I'm not a clever boy,
I'm not a smart guy,
Do the things without thinking,
Speak out the words without thinking,
that's me, that's the truth.
But now, I wanted to change,
to be a better person,
to be a better guy.
And also,
to have a better life,
to have a better relationship with someone.
Thanks,
from my honest heart.
Thanks for forgiving me,
forgiving a stupid one.
Really, thanks.
I'm so happy,
because I have met you all.
Ya... I'm very happy!
From: Your friend, f@n
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